Catching u up…

Hmmm…where to begin…

KU lost last night in the Elite 8 to UCLA. Talk about irony, eh? Former dream school vs. current dream school. Is it a sign? I’m pretty bummed, thought it was our year but oh well. Always next year!

I’ve got a crush, been acting like a stupid high schooler about it which is embarrassing…but I seriously haven’t had a crush since high school so it’s kind of nice. It’s kind of like waking up.

This whole bill thing isn’t going to well, or to put it more acurately, I haven’t been working nearly hard enough on it. At this rate, there’s no way I’ll make it to Kansas by August. If I don’t, I have no idea what I’m going to do. Guess I better get my shit together and start trying a little harder, eh?

Just another Friday…

I woke up this morning not remembering if it was Friday or Saturday. I was thinking that it must not be Friday because yesterday there was a reallly good General Hospital on and I was thinking that they would have saved that kind of cliff hanger for a Friday episode…yes I keep track of the days of the week by thinking about my soaps. So, anyway, woke up, realized it was Friday and tried to motivate myself to do my laundry because I was out of clean clothes. That took about 2 hours, during which I watch One Tree Hill…again. I did one load before going out to the garage and watching Cassie and Nick get baked, got ready for work and, well, went to work.

Broke many of my little rules today, first of which I think was sleeping til noon. I followed that up by drinking a Dr. Pepper (total count for the day = 3) and then got cut from work at 9 o’clock. Was gonna go out for dinner with the girls after they got off but they must not have gotten cut, whatever happened they didn’t call me when they got off like they said they would so no matter. I ate Taco Bell for dinner, was gonna eat Panda but waited on the girls too long and Panda closes at 10 not 10:30.

Blows my mind how early everything closes around here, even on the weekends. Guess I was just used to Lawrence, where everywhere was open to 2 or 3 in the morning…that’s the tale of the a college town I guess. Anyway, got baked in the office, ate my Taco Bell and worked on the puzzle a little bit. I was watching a Saturday Night Live rerun on E! and it was Dane Cook (who is an idiot I now believe) with James Blunt as the musical guest. Now I don’t know if it’s because I’m high or not but he sang “You’re Beautiful” and although I have hated that song since I first heard it, it was really pretty and I really liked it…had to have been because I’m high…oh well, ok day

Please! Oh, Please!

Please let me get better soon! I’m still sick. Last weekend it started with bad headaches and that weird stomach pain but all this week it has been sinuses. I’ve been coughing like crazy and my nose is running like a faucet. I have that awful kind of headache you know where every time you move your head it feels like your brain is loose and shaking around in there…it really hurts!

I want to be well again!

Something I’ve learned…

…do not read blogs of people you knew in a past life if u do not want to read something bad about yourself. I didn’t read something really bad about myself, ok it kind of was bad but anyway, I read something that just kind of set me down a notch…you know when you have those moments when you just go “Oh, really?” Anyway, I don’t really want to go into details of it because I know it shouldn’t really matter to me but it does…it’s just this damn person always makes me feel like shit about myself…I won’t mention names though.

Anyway, reading a lot lately. Finished David Copperfield…LOVED IT! I recommend it, 5 stars…Also read Middlesex by Jeffrey Eugenides and am now reading The Virgin Suicides by the same guy…good writer. I don’t love the books but they’re interesting. I just have never loved the I don’t even know what genre they would classify under…dark comedy? I don’t the genre that I can get through well enough but you know I just don’t love it…Anyways, also reading Blonde by Joyce Carol Oates. Having a lot of trouble just reading it straight through because it’s about Marilyn Monroe…although I don’t like describing it as that because it is above all a novel, not a biography. Anyway, I know enough about her and especially the entertaining parts that I’ve just wanted to jump past all the orphan stuff and go straight to the movies. And also, you know biggest sex symbol like ever, there’s some sex in the book but not like romance novel sex…I don’t know. I haven’t decided what I think about this book either. I’m reading all of those because of that book Cassie bought me for Christmas 1001 Books to Read Before You Die…A great Christmas present because it’s opened me up to a lot of books I probably wouldn’t have read under other circumstances.

I have a scratchy throat…I need to get sick like I need a hole in my head. Serves me right for using all my sick days in January. Also, I need to look for a second job, desperately, or the Kansas plans will have to be scrapped and I have no idea what I’ll do with my life if that doesn’t work out.

Yuck…

Why is that every morning when I wake up I feel like total crap? I have a headache. I’m congested. I’m just plain grumpy.

I’m going to take it all at a deeper meaning that I really need to get my shit in gear. Maybe since I’m up at such an ungodly hour (ie before 11 am) I should be productive…what a novel concept I know. I need to go job hunting and to weight watchers, and maybe, just maybe work out a little bit. Here’s hoping I get motivated and don’t just stay grumpy (because if I do, I’m likely to call in and play hookey from work which we all know is the last thing in the world I need to do).

As bad as it is to admit, but I’m wondering if it’s because I have been toking before bed lately…hmm…I’ll test my theory tonight, although I did fall asleep much better last night than I had been.

I DON’T KNOW!!! I think I’m going to go get a Dr. Pepper…